last time someone post in the chatbox was.... September.
last time someone comment in my post........ was July.
wuuuuwaaa....... but nvm. lol
Friday, November 27, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
unluckily 2009 (updated to 29th)
starts from 22th.
morning time, my glasses broke all of the sudden, though i didnt fall down nor knock it or something.
evening time, my friend fetch me to get another new spec.
while walking to the shop(just 1m distance), my slipper tear apart.
then i go to mini market and tried to buy a new slipper but found myself had no more money.
so i had to borrow money from my friend.
ends for 22th.
25th, i drop my wallet at the evening.
26th morning. magically my RM50 which kept inside of the drawer gone. while no one is in my house. my doors all locked.
in total, i lose more than RM300 if include fee of remaking IC, money lost, fee of getting a new spec.
then today(29th), i bought 6.30pm ticket bek to KL.
my phone sot jor. keep on auto turn off.
i tried to called my friend since 5.30++
finally get in contact with my friend, he rush to fetch me n rush to ktm station
late liao
so thought i could buy ticket again, mayb 10pm's
but kampar's ktm ppl lazy, 5pm close liao
then i want online book and borrow printer to print ticket.
ktm change policy, booking ticket nid to be 48hrs before train leave
then my sister ask me to take bus.
i smsed and see if anyone know what time bus station close normally,
no one knows, but at least they left me the bus station's number.
when i call, bus station d ppl said today no more ticket to KL
end of story. *clap hands*
morning time, my glasses broke all of the sudden, though i didnt fall down nor knock it or something.
evening time, my friend fetch me to get another new spec.
while walking to the shop(just 1m distance), my slipper tear apart.
then i go to mini market and tried to buy a new slipper but found myself had no more money.
so i had to borrow money from my friend.
ends for 22th.
25th, i drop my wallet at the evening.
26th morning. magically my RM50 which kept inside of the drawer gone. while no one is in my house. my doors all locked.
in total, i lose more than RM300 if include fee of remaking IC, money lost, fee of getting a new spec.
then today(29th), i bought 6.30pm ticket bek to KL.
my phone sot jor. keep on auto turn off.
i tried to called my friend since 5.30++
finally get in contact with my friend, he rush to fetch me n rush to ktm station
late liao
so thought i could buy ticket again, mayb 10pm's
but kampar's ktm ppl lazy, 5pm close liao
then i want online book and borrow printer to print ticket.
ktm change policy, booking ticket nid to be 48hrs before train leave
then my sister ask me to take bus.
i smsed and see if anyone know what time bus station close normally,
no one knows, but at least they left me the bus station's number.
when i call, bus station d ppl said today no more ticket to KL
end of story. *clap hands*
Saturday, October 17, 2009
stargazing!!! wooohoooo
googling around, i found this site - http://my.execpc.com/60/B3/culp/astronomy/
its 17th Oct, 2am+
i woke up, take my 'breakfast', check around the net for guides on stargazing.
after found a few useful site. i start to track down the stars one by one.
it took my around 2hrs to track down half of the south sky. which stars that i tracked down r just the easier/common seen ones, there're more minor stars around them which i couldn't track them down in time.
in this 2 hrs stargazing, i notice a few shooting star, which i doubt is it possible or not cuz i used to think that shooting stars r not that common and shouldn't be able to witness them a few times in 1 night. if what i saw is not imagination, then i did, saw 4-5 shooting stars.
a nice experience, dunno should i be glad that i didn't join my friend's trip or not, cuz if i did i may not able to stargaze and track down few stars which i had nvr been able to.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
17th Sep
wake at 2pm+
go out at around 3.30pm.
was planning to take my meal after i pay the electric bill,
but joe no.2 suggest me to revision first, then later take dinner earlier than usual.
so i go to my sven's house n start revision,
in the middle i was hungry, so i eat some biscuits n bread in sven's house first.
when its around 6pm, i thought its time to take my dinner,
but unluckily, rain starts falling(again, it just temporary stopped at afternoon)
the rain falls for a long time, so long until 11pm actually.
so be4 that, sven cooked some instant noodle for me to kill my hunger at near 7pm.
since i always eat a lot, so that little instant noodle is definately not enough for me.
very soon, around 8.30pm i started hungry again.
but i still endure my hunger, so stays in sven's house til 11pm, then only i called joe no.2
after he comes and fetch me, he said he got few more question needed to ask me.
so i go to his house first, then teach n explain him a few things.
ended up i took almost 2 hrs, which its around 1am then only i can take my meal.
since i had hunger for quite a long time, so i order a lot of food.
1 roti pisang, 1 maggi goreng double, 2 drinks.
but the waiter made mistake, gives me 2 roti pisang.
so in the end i eat 3 food(2 roti+maggi), and have 2 drinks.
i was very full, actually even now still very full.
now i reach home, at around 2.30am.
today i had leave my house for around 11 hrs, from 3.30pm to 2.30am w00t!
go out at around 3.30pm.
was planning to take my meal after i pay the electric bill,
but joe no.2 suggest me to revision first, then later take dinner earlier than usual.
so i go to my sven's house n start revision,
in the middle i was hungry, so i eat some biscuits n bread in sven's house first.
when its around 6pm, i thought its time to take my dinner,
but unluckily, rain starts falling(again, it just temporary stopped at afternoon)
the rain falls for a long time, so long until 11pm actually.
so be4 that, sven cooked some instant noodle for me to kill my hunger at near 7pm.
since i always eat a lot, so that little instant noodle is definately not enough for me.
very soon, around 8.30pm i started hungry again.
but i still endure my hunger, so stays in sven's house til 11pm, then only i called joe no.2
after he comes and fetch me, he said he got few more question needed to ask me.
so i go to his house first, then teach n explain him a few things.
ended up i took almost 2 hrs, which its around 1am then only i can take my meal.
since i had hunger for quite a long time, so i order a lot of food.
1 roti pisang, 1 maggi goreng double, 2 drinks.
but the waiter made mistake, gives me 2 roti pisang.
so in the end i eat 3 food(2 roti+maggi), and have 2 drinks.
i was very full, actually even now still very full.
now i reach home, at around 2.30am.
today i had leave my house for around 11 hrs, from 3.30pm to 2.30am w00t!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
13th Sep 09
ok, i'm lost. i just finished my anime, but now i dunno wat to do next.
now is 4.52am in my pc's time.
listening to music, i'm writing my post,
the other tab in my Mozilla is RC,
in my mind is a hell lot of things,
"study CoA? play with codes? anime again? online games? offline games? or even take a late night walk?(more like early walk)"
so i ended up opening my blog, checking others, read a bit(really a bit only), then start writing my post.
so, what?
simply write something i had done today.
ok, start with 7.50am+/- my alarm rang, i wake up - close it - fall back to bed.
8am joe no.2 gimme a morning wake up call,
8.25 finished preparing, breakfast.
8.30am+ reach school.
talk bout wat we had read, discuss what we remember after reading, bla bla so on
til 9am, go in class n exam starts.
11am come out, then go to take lunch
cc calls while on the way, asking us to take lunch together.
after lunch go home lie on floor for 1 hr, then wake up and use the last few minutes to revise all over again for the 2pm test.
1.30pm, wake to my fren's house, wait him to fetch me to school.
1.50pm+, reached school again, put down files, take out exam slip, go to the exam class.
2pm, exam starts, i look over all 5 questions.
a bit unbelievable is, the one i can do well the most is theory question, which usually i'm very bad at.
3pm finished my test, double check again
3.10+ felt boring, so leave the exam class already.
thought my fren would come out before 3.30pm. so i waited him.
=.= darn, he ended up 4.10pm only come out from the building.
in between 3.30-4pm, i took a walk in the new buildings.
"ooh wow" is what i keep on saying as i looked at the new place.
inside the building is not bad, outside is also good.
inner part is a bit like park, go walk path which has plants at both sides of the path.
but the walking path havent done building yet, so i turn back when i reach the unfinished part.
at the unfinished path there, there're a few booth, seems like its for student to stay inside for...... sightseeing? cuz around is really like a park with plants, small river, then there're the east lake to look at, some flowers.
well, if Kampar Utarian is reading this, and if u havent been to the new blocks, go ahead and take a look, cuz it is nice.
but since its not completely done building yet, so u might see some bug running around(for the deeper part, outer part already has quite some cars and student being around so no problem).
besides bugs, inner part's building's toilet n few rooms are not done, and it somehow smells(either its from the incomplete toilet or the soil used for planting).
ok, done talking bout the new blocks.
4.20pm+ reach home, start playin games.
without realising, its already 7.40pm, so i walk out for dinner.
coincidently i saw my friends r on their way to dinner as well.
then coincidently again i saw another friend of mine who should b living in West lake, appearing in tmn kampar perdana(aka East lake).
well then, after dinner is, back to home of course.
continue game again, til 10pm++, or mayb 10.30pm? anyway, i was tired, so i though i could use some rest.
and then i 'restover' and wake up to found tat its 2.30am already.
darn =.= my biological clock upside down again.
since its already 6hrs since my last meal, so of course i'm hungry.
make a cup of tea, took my supper while watching anime.
after finished eating, continue anime til the begin of my post.
so now my post ended at 5.10am(my pc's time again of course).
to all my friends having problem in exam, may the force be with you all.(since i could careless about the exams)
now is 4.52am in my pc's time.
listening to music, i'm writing my post,
the other tab in my Mozilla is RC,
in my mind is a hell lot of things,
"study CoA? play with codes? anime again? online games? offline games? or even take a late night walk?(more like early walk)"
so i ended up opening my blog, checking others, read a bit(really a bit only), then start writing my post.
so, what?
simply write something i had done today.
ok, start with 7.50am+/- my alarm rang, i wake up - close it - fall back to bed.
8am joe no.2 gimme a morning wake up call,
8.25 finished preparing, breakfast.
8.30am+ reach school.
talk bout wat we had read, discuss what we remember after reading, bla bla so on
til 9am, go in class n exam starts.
11am come out, then go to take lunch
cc calls while on the way, asking us to take lunch together.
after lunch go home lie on floor for 1 hr, then wake up and use the last few minutes to revise all over again for the 2pm test.
1.30pm, wake to my fren's house, wait him to fetch me to school.
1.50pm+, reached school again, put down files, take out exam slip, go to the exam class.
2pm, exam starts, i look over all 5 questions.
a bit unbelievable is, the one i can do well the most is theory question, which usually i'm very bad at.
3pm finished my test, double check again
3.10+ felt boring, so leave the exam class already.
thought my fren would come out before 3.30pm. so i waited him.
=.= darn, he ended up 4.10pm only come out from the building.
in between 3.30-4pm, i took a walk in the new buildings.
"ooh wow" is what i keep on saying as i looked at the new place.
inside the building is not bad, outside is also good.
inner part is a bit like park, go walk path which has plants at both sides of the path.
but the walking path havent done building yet, so i turn back when i reach the unfinished part.
at the unfinished path there, there're a few booth, seems like its for student to stay inside for...... sightseeing? cuz around is really like a park with plants, small river, then there're the east lake to look at, some flowers.
well, if Kampar Utarian is reading this, and if u havent been to the new blocks, go ahead and take a look, cuz it is nice.
but since its not completely done building yet, so u might see some bug running around(for the deeper part, outer part already has quite some cars and student being around so no problem).
besides bugs, inner part's building's toilet n few rooms are not done, and it somehow smells(either its from the incomplete toilet or the soil used for planting).
ok, done talking bout the new blocks.
4.20pm+ reach home, start playin games.
without realising, its already 7.40pm, so i walk out for dinner.
coincidently i saw my friends r on their way to dinner as well.
then coincidently again i saw another friend of mine who should b living in West lake, appearing in tmn kampar perdana(aka East lake).
well then, after dinner is, back to home of course.
continue game again, til 10pm++, or mayb 10.30pm? anyway, i was tired, so i though i could use some rest.
and then i 'restover' and wake up to found tat its 2.30am already.
darn =.= my biological clock upside down again.
since its already 6hrs since my last meal, so of course i'm hungry.
make a cup of tea, took my supper while watching anime.
after finished eating, continue anime til the begin of my post.
so now my post ended at 5.10am(my pc's time again of course).
to all my friends having problem in exam, may the force be with you all.(since i could careless about the exams)
Sunday, August 30, 2009
ruined life style
4.15pm - wake up(=.= darn 'early' aint i)
6.30pm - after staying in front of pc for 2 hrs, then only i start to eat something
7.00pm - continue games and anime
8.00pm - go out buy bread+jam for breakfast
9.30pm - found something i liked in Sven Fish's blog.
anyone know who this is?
9.35pm - writing this post.
9.36pm - stuck of dunno what to do next.
6.30pm - after staying in front of pc for 2 hrs, then only i start to eat something
7.00pm - continue games and anime
8.00pm - go out buy bread+jam for breakfast
9.30pm - found something i liked in Sven Fish's blog.
anyone know who this is?
9.35pm - writing this post.
9.36pm - stuck of dunno what to do next.
report on 29th Aug, or shoud i say 30th Aug?
4.30am, drink coffee, eat bread
6.30am, found myself still playing computer games
6.45am, wondering should i keep going or go sleep.
6.30am, found myself still playing computer games
6.45am, wondering should i keep going or go sleep.
report on 29th Aug, or shoud i say 30th Aug?
4.30am, drink coffee, eat bread
6.30am, found myself still playing computer games
6.45am, wondering should i keep going or go sleep.
6.30am, found myself still playing computer games
6.45am, wondering should i keep going or go sleep.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
today's 'report' August 27, 2009
2.30pm. wake up
wash face, laze a bit, sit in front of the pc, chat a bit, make a cup of tea.
5pm. drank 2 cup of Earl Grey(bought from Tesco), eat 5 pieces of bread with strawberry jam.
5.30pm. writing all these stuffs in blogspot.com. plan to edit this post back later.
wash face, laze a bit, sit in front of the pc, chat a bit, make a cup of tea.
5pm. drank 2 cup of Earl Grey(bought from Tesco), eat 5 pieces of bread with strawberry jam.
5.30pm. writing all these stuffs in blogspot.com. plan to edit this post back later.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Yoshi!!
alright, i had finally set where my first visit should be in Jap in the future.
Satte, Saitama.
as an otaku, as a lucky star fans, i cannot prevent/stop/dont go this place.
and as a reminder of this place's location. i plan to put the detail in here.
anyone else who r interested also can take a look from the following link.
http://aaroninjapan09.wordpress.com/2009/08/20/isumi-konatas-house/
Satte, Saitama.
as an otaku, as a lucky star fans, i cannot prevent/stop/dont go this place.
and as a reminder of this place's location. i plan to put the detail in here.
anyone else who r interested also can take a look from the following link.
http://aaroninjapan09.wordpress.com/2009/08/20/isumi-konatas-house/
Monday, August 17, 2009
i had no idea what title it should be
so........
blog should be updated from time to time,
not doing so,
will resulting in.............
...what was it again?
forget it, i will write it down again next time when i remember.
so, what should i write now.
nothing come into my mind
besides "i wanna watch anime! i wanna play games!! i dont wanna go school tml"
but reality is always cruel,
i cannot do what i want to.
oh, i know what i can write in this post liao.
"TODAY'S NIGHT SKY IS FULL OF STARS AGAIN!!! WOOOHOOO!!!"
but now raining liao...
blog should be updated from time to time,
not doing so,
will resulting in.............
...what was it again?
forget it, i will write it down again next time when i remember.
so, what should i write now.
nothing come into my mind
besides "i wanna watch anime! i wanna play games!! i dont wanna go school tml"
but reality is always cruel,
i cannot do what i want to.
oh, i know what i can write in this post liao.
"TODAY'S NIGHT SKY IS FULL OF STARS AGAIN!!! WOOOHOOO!!!"
but now raining liao...
Saturday, August 8, 2009
night of 08/08/2009
tonight's sky is full of stars.
its so daaaaaaaaamn beautiful.
man, i should hav bought a mat or something so i can put it on the field and lie on it.
then watch the sky for hours.
wonder when will such starry night comes again.
its so daaaaaaaaamn beautiful.
man, i should hav bought a mat or something so i can put it on the field and lie on it.
then watch the sky for hours.
wonder when will such starry night comes again.
Friday, August 7, 2009
today's report 7/8/09
slept at 4am, then wake at 4pm =.=(exactly 12 hrs of sleep)
prepared thing to be eat at 4.30pm.
going to eat now.
4.40++ data comm test is out!!! oh sheet! stop eating after knowing this
prepared thing to be eat at 4.30pm.
going to eat now.
4.40++ data comm test is out!!! oh sheet! stop eating after knowing this
Friday, July 24, 2009
GG v0.2
week 9(27th July-1st Aug)
1. data struct assessment due
2. data struct mid-term
3. database mid-term
4. moral mid-term
5. data communication lab test
1. data struct assessment due
2. data struct mid-term
3. database mid-term
4. moral mid-term
5. data communication lab test
GG
1. sleep at 2am and wake by raindrops at 6am.
2. 8am jor still raining(cannot go out)
3. waste time waiting for the rain to stop while i'm damn tired.
4. just realise my clothes washed yesterday are still in the washing machine.
5. mid-term is actually at week 9.
6. my data struct's code is still not working well.
7. my house's internet acc is still cut and not back yet.
pls let me RIP.
2. 8am jor still raining(cannot go out)
3. waste time waiting for the rain to stop while i'm damn tired.
4. just realise my clothes washed yesterday are still in the washing machine.
5. mid-term is actually at week 9.
6. my data struct's code is still not working well.
7. my house's internet acc is still cut and not back yet.
pls let me RIP.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
muttons at midnight. from podcast.sg(singapore's FM)
1,2,3
muttons ball, muttons ball, hanging on the waaall~~
one is big, one is small, not balanced at aaall~~
hey!
muttons ball, muttons ball, u can eat them raaaw~~
u can hang them in your hall,
use them as your core(or cord? nid help in putting this part).
muttons ball, muttons ball, hanging on the waaall~~
one is big, one is small, not balanced at aaall~~
hey!
muttons ball, muttons ball, u can eat them raaaw~~
u can hang them in your hall,
use them as your core(or cord? nid help in putting this part).
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
something done out of boredom - very random
"random" again.
i see it quite often, from few of my fren's blog, always random random random.
i'm waiting the random metaphormosis into condom.
anyway, i will post a random line to make things seems more random.
'fish is fishy and say "ish!" then shit on the sheet'
another one,
'buta is pig and not blind, blind buta is buta and also a pig, pig is buta but not blind'
i see it quite often, from few of my fren's blog, always random random random.
i'm waiting the random metaphormosis into condom.
anyway, i will post a random line to make things seems more random.
'fish is fishy and say "ish!" then shit on the sheet'
another one,
'buta is pig and not blind, blind buta is buta and also a pig, pig is buta but not blind'
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
jobstreet forum!!!
jobstreet forum
i am known to this forum at the last Saturday, it seems like jobstreet just has this forum recently.
so it is very new, and little topics of course, but it is growing(since its the famous jobstreet's forum)
i last heard that the members has reach 1000.
so, well, join if u can. contribute ur knowledge(any field, from language to I.T.) if u wan, or ask question u wan to.
i am known to this forum at the last Saturday, it seems like jobstreet just has this forum recently.
so it is very new, and little topics of course, but it is growing(since its the famous jobstreet's forum)
i last heard that the members has reach 1000.
so, well, join if u can. contribute ur knowledge(any field, from language to I.T.) if u wan, or ask question u wan to.
Monday, June 15, 2009
next week is K-On's last episode!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!
next week last jor aaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
cannot see Yui, Mio, and Mugi anymore aaaaaaa!!!!!!!!(sry for not mentioning Ritsu, cuz it sounds like my name)
next week last jor aaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
cannot see Yui, Mio, and Mugi anymore aaaaaaa!!!!!!!!(sry for not mentioning Ritsu, cuz it sounds like my name)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
something done out of boredom - untitled(cuz i also don't know what title to put)
the rhythm that pass by my ears from my back,
tells me how sad it is,
tells me how hard it tried,
tells me how lonely it felt.
i tried to look for the source of that rhythm,
but i couldn't get to it,
it disappeared right after i turn back.
i gave up looking for it,
and continue on my journey.
then the rhythm flies by me again,
somehow i can tell it is from the same source.
the rhythm turned softer now,
somewhat happier,
again i try to turn back and look for the source.
it disappeared again,
but i was managed to track which direction it is from.
ignoring my current journey,
i walk towards that direction.
i found someone,
looking at me and smiled,
tells me how thankful she felt.
as no one heard her voice,
no one felt the rhythm.
she said she sang when she is sad,
she said she sang when she is lonely,
hoping someone would listen to her,
as a way for her to relieve her stress.
but no one heard her,
she thought no one would listen to such rhythm,
so she tried to sang with other feelings,
and her song has finally reached someone.
she thank me again and again,
and left.
i didn't had the chance to talk to her.
i am just able to watch her left like that.
i thought myself,
"well, she seems fine now, everything should be alright"
then i continue my journey again.
everything went black after that,
until i realize i'm lying on my bed,
listening to the music that is playing from my computer.
after a while then only i know,
i just had a dream.
i wake up, drink some water,
take up my phone and check the time,
it is still early morning,
so i go back to my bed again hoping to be able to get more sleep.
the last thing in my mind before i am asleep is
"i hope that rhythm will come again"
tells me how sad it is,
tells me how hard it tried,
tells me how lonely it felt.
i tried to look for the source of that rhythm,
but i couldn't get to it,
it disappeared right after i turn back.
i gave up looking for it,
and continue on my journey.
then the rhythm flies by me again,
somehow i can tell it is from the same source.
the rhythm turned softer now,
somewhat happier,
again i try to turn back and look for the source.
it disappeared again,
but i was managed to track which direction it is from.
ignoring my current journey,
i walk towards that direction.
i found someone,
looking at me and smiled,
tells me how thankful she felt.
as no one heard her voice,
no one felt the rhythm.
she said she sang when she is sad,
she said she sang when she is lonely,
hoping someone would listen to her,
as a way for her to relieve her stress.
but no one heard her,
she thought no one would listen to such rhythm,
so she tried to sang with other feelings,
and her song has finally reached someone.
she thank me again and again,
and left.
i didn't had the chance to talk to her.
i am just able to watch her left like that.
i thought myself,
"well, she seems fine now, everything should be alright"
then i continue my journey again.
everything went black after that,
until i realize i'm lying on my bed,
listening to the music that is playing from my computer.
after a while then only i know,
i just had a dream.
i wake up, drink some water,
take up my phone and check the time,
it is still early morning,
so i go back to my bed again hoping to be able to get more sleep.
the last thing in my mind before i am asleep is
"i hope that rhythm will come again"
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
something done out of boredom - story 1: the lost of the sweet smile
"thanks for the meal~"
Minnie stopped eating and tried to leave her seat with some leftovers.
"eat them all, don't waste the food" dad scold her again.
"eew......"
as usual she hate those bitter vegetables and chillies,
so she often left them when dad is not coming back for dinner from work.
dad will scold her if he is around.
my dad is... kind of strict... though i hardly scold by him.
i don't know if he is really strict, but Minnie seems to always do the wrong thing and scold by him.
"why is daddy always scold me? is daddy hate me?"
Minnie often ask me this, i'm not sure why, so i just follow that mom said to her a lot.
"because u r naughty, so he scold u."
"then what should i do?"
"become a good girl then."
"how?"
that beats me, i don't know how to answer her.
after thinking awhile, i suggest her to follow what i do,
since what i hardly scold by dad, so perhaps my action won't make him angry,
or so i thought.
one day, when i was helping mom preparing for dinner
Minnie came by and said she want to do what i'm doing: helping mom.
without second thought, Minnie just grab up a knife and intend to chop the potatos,
then she slip her hand and slightly cut her hand.
then she cry out loud of course,
dad come into the kitchen first, followed by mom.
"are you alright? why are you in the kitchen? if you want to play then just play at somewhere else"
dad's tone is a bit strong.
Minnie cry even louder and run to mom.
in Minnie's eyes, dad is angry at her,
but from our view, it is obvious that dad is too worry bout her and lose himself a little.
there was a day,
the worst day for our family.
"isn't dad should be back by now?" i asked my mom
"i'm not sure, but i think he should be here any moment.
then there is a call from the hospital,
saying dad is involved in an accident,
and he is in a very serious status.
Minnie, mom and i rush to the hospital and wait outside the surgery room.
after a few hours, the doctor come out.
"please stay with him, tonight might be his final night"
doctor told that to my mom, and i overheard it.
"daddy! daddy"
Minnie is rush inside the room,
crying and clinging at dad.
dad open his eyes, looked at Minnie, then slowly open his mouth.
"what is the time now?"
i looked at the clock on the wall outside the room,
"around 11.50pm..."
"thank god... there're still.... 10 more minutes...."
it seems like he need a lot of energy to just to say those few words,
"Minnie..."
"daddy....."
"happy birthday.... sorry i broke your present"
"daddy, are you going to be alright?"
we all know he won't, but we don't want to hurt Minnie.
"yes, dad will be alright" i answered
then dad continue his words,
"Minnie... you are.... 1 year.... older already....... u r grown up now.... so don't left any food again...."
"i will, daddy"
"and.... don't talk with your mouth full........"
"en....."
"Ying.... take care of your little sister."
"yes, dad"
"honey.... sorry for not able to stay up for dinner often....."
mom is already crying out, i'm surprised that i'm not.
"it's ok"
"sorry..... for...."
dad closed his eyes and passed.
Minnie keep on asking why he closed his eyes,
we can't help but to lie that he is asleep.
"lets go outside, Minnie"
i hold on Minnie's hand and go out of the room.
mom is still inside and crying.
it is been days after that, the whole house is very quiet.
the lively Minnie stay in her room most of the time,
reading on her books aloud.
mom's face is pale, but she still push herself that she fell sick later.
Neighbours helped us out while mom is sick.
after 1 month, Minnie start to ask me where did dad go,
dad's longest trip to work is only 2 weeks, so Minnie is starting to feel not right.
so i lied again, and said that he had gone to heaven.
"when will he be back?"
i told Minnie that he won't because heaven is very very very far away.
"why is he going so far? is he still angry at me? i'm a good girl now, i read books, i finish all food, i didn't talk when eating. did i do something wrong again?"
"no Minnie, u didn't, but he have to go no matter what"
"why? i don't want that! i want daddy! why is he going away"
"can't you just accept it!!! he is not here anymore, he cannot be here anymore, understand!!"
i lose my temper, everyday is stressing after dad's death.
Minnie cried, and run to her own room.
it is already been a month,
the whole house lost the smiles,
and i'm really surprise that i didn't cry at all.
"cuz you're too sad so you can't cry anymore."
Yan said that to me when i told him and Yu Zhe about this.
"it will be better if you're able to cry, cuz u will feel better that way"
even so, my tears still won't come out.
years passed,
Minnie is already in primary school,
all these years after dad's death,
Minnie didn't smile at all.
the most sweet smiles in the house,
is now gone.
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author's note:"sorry for the bad english, and please leave comment of the storyline"
Minnie stopped eating and tried to leave her seat with some leftovers.
"eat them all, don't waste the food" dad scold her again.
"eew......"
as usual she hate those bitter vegetables and chillies,
so she often left them when dad is not coming back for dinner from work.
dad will scold her if he is around.
my dad is... kind of strict... though i hardly scold by him.
i don't know if he is really strict, but Minnie seems to always do the wrong thing and scold by him.
"why is daddy always scold me? is daddy hate me?"
Minnie often ask me this, i'm not sure why, so i just follow that mom said to her a lot.
"because u r naughty, so he scold u."
"then what should i do?"
"become a good girl then."
"how?"
that beats me, i don't know how to answer her.
after thinking awhile, i suggest her to follow what i do,
since what i hardly scold by dad, so perhaps my action won't make him angry,
or so i thought.
one day, when i was helping mom preparing for dinner
Minnie came by and said she want to do what i'm doing: helping mom.
without second thought, Minnie just grab up a knife and intend to chop the potatos,
then she slip her hand and slightly cut her hand.
then she cry out loud of course,
dad come into the kitchen first, followed by mom.
"are you alright? why are you in the kitchen? if you want to play then just play at somewhere else"
dad's tone is a bit strong.
Minnie cry even louder and run to mom.
in Minnie's eyes, dad is angry at her,
but from our view, it is obvious that dad is too worry bout her and lose himself a little.
there was a day,
the worst day for our family.
"isn't dad should be back by now?" i asked my mom
"i'm not sure, but i think he should be here any moment.
then there is a call from the hospital,
saying dad is involved in an accident,
and he is in a very serious status.
Minnie, mom and i rush to the hospital and wait outside the surgery room.
after a few hours, the doctor come out.
"please stay with him, tonight might be his final night"
doctor told that to my mom, and i overheard it.
"daddy! daddy"
Minnie is rush inside the room,
crying and clinging at dad.
dad open his eyes, looked at Minnie, then slowly open his mouth.
"what is the time now?"
i looked at the clock on the wall outside the room,
"around 11.50pm..."
"thank god... there're still.... 10 more minutes...."
it seems like he need a lot of energy to just to say those few words,
"Minnie..."
"daddy....."
"happy birthday.... sorry i broke your present"
"daddy, are you going to be alright?"
we all know he won't, but we don't want to hurt Minnie.
"yes, dad will be alright" i answered
then dad continue his words,
"Minnie... you are.... 1 year.... older already....... u r grown up now.... so don't left any food again...."
"i will, daddy"
"and.... don't talk with your mouth full........"
"en....."
"Ying.... take care of your little sister."
"yes, dad"
"honey.... sorry for not able to stay up for dinner often....."
mom is already crying out, i'm surprised that i'm not.
"it's ok"
"sorry..... for...."
dad closed his eyes and passed.
Minnie keep on asking why he closed his eyes,
we can't help but to lie that he is asleep.
"lets go outside, Minnie"
i hold on Minnie's hand and go out of the room.
mom is still inside and crying.
it is been days after that, the whole house is very quiet.
the lively Minnie stay in her room most of the time,
reading on her books aloud.
mom's face is pale, but she still push herself that she fell sick later.
Neighbours helped us out while mom is sick.
after 1 month, Minnie start to ask me where did dad go,
dad's longest trip to work is only 2 weeks, so Minnie is starting to feel not right.
so i lied again, and said that he had gone to heaven.
"when will he be back?"
i told Minnie that he won't because heaven is very very very far away.
"why is he going so far? is he still angry at me? i'm a good girl now, i read books, i finish all food, i didn't talk when eating. did i do something wrong again?"
"no Minnie, u didn't, but he have to go no matter what"
"why? i don't want that! i want daddy! why is he going away"
"can't you just accept it!!! he is not here anymore, he cannot be here anymore, understand!!"
i lose my temper, everyday is stressing after dad's death.
Minnie cried, and run to her own room.
it is already been a month,
the whole house lost the smiles,
and i'm really surprise that i didn't cry at all.
"cuz you're too sad so you can't cry anymore."
Yan said that to me when i told him and Yu Zhe about this.
"it will be better if you're able to cry, cuz u will feel better that way"
even so, my tears still won't come out.
years passed,
Minnie is already in primary school,
all these years after dad's death,
Minnie didn't smile at all.
the most sweet smiles in the house,
is now gone.
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author's note:"sorry for the bad english, and please leave comment of the storyline"
Friday, May 8, 2009
something done out of boredom - speech : Time to Rain
after watching supernatural, my another anime haven't done downloaded yet, so i plan to kill some time in here while waiting for it to be done downloaded.
here's the speech(i don't know if this is really consider as a speech):
"i like raining, i hate raining,
i like raining at the night,
i hate raining at the morning,
i like raining at the dawn,
i hate raining at evening,
i don't hate raining at the noon,
nor do i like it,
afternoon is hot,
so i prefer rain,
afternoon has class,
so i don't hope to rain,
and i decided,
afternoon is fine,
for it to rain or not.
at night i hope it to rain,
'cause i want to have a cold night sleep,
at dawn i hope it to rain,
'cause i am still sleeping,
i hate raining at morning,
'cause i am awaken already,
i hate raining at the evening,
'cause the sunlight will be gone quickly,
covered by the dark clouds,
making the night comes sooner,
make me feel the darkness had overpower the light......."
that will be the first speech i made(actually to be more precise is the first speech i publish in blog), will have more when i'm free and i had the mood for it(though it doesn't seems to be attractive).
here's the speech(i don't know if this is really consider as a speech):
"i like raining, i hate raining,
i like raining at the night,
i hate raining at the morning,
i like raining at the dawn,
i hate raining at evening,
i don't hate raining at the noon,
nor do i like it,
afternoon is hot,
so i prefer rain,
afternoon has class,
so i don't hope to rain,
and i decided,
afternoon is fine,
for it to rain or not.
at night i hope it to rain,
'cause i want to have a cold night sleep,
at dawn i hope it to rain,
'cause i am still sleeping,
i hate raining at morning,
'cause i am awaken already,
i hate raining at the evening,
'cause the sunlight will be gone quickly,
covered by the dark clouds,
making the night comes sooner,
make me feel the darkness had overpower the light......."
that will be the first speech i made(actually to be more precise is the first speech i publish in blog), will have more when i'm free and i had the mood for it(though it doesn't seems to be attractive).
Thursday, May 7, 2009
continue to just now's "oh f***, i forgot!!!!"
great, i just receive a call and it seems like my spm result cannot be used, cuz it is a transcript not the true copy of certificate.
continue from just now's post,
i had forgot where i put my certificate,
worse,
i don't even sure i had get it or not.
great, one after another, then i guess tml something real serious should happen as my bad feeling havent gone yet.
continue from just now's post,
i had forgot where i put my certificate,
worse,
i don't even sure i had get it or not.
great, one after another, then i guess tml something real serious should happen as my bad feeling havent gone yet.
so far my greatest case of "oh f***, i forgot it!!!!"
i would forgot to pay the bill,
i would forgot when my exam is,
i would forgot to bath,
i would forgot today's date,
i would forgot what i was planning to do,
i had forgot my parents' birthday,
i had forgot my eldest sister's birthday,
i never recall knowing my elder sister's birthday(means i don't even hav a rough idea when),
i had forgot to bring my key out when i locked my door, and it happened twice with 1 time i was half naked after bath,
i had forgot some promises i made,
sometimes i forgot what i have done few minutes ago.
yesterday i just had my worst 'forgot-something-important', i forgot bout ptptn's due date is 8th, which i only had a few days left to settle things up, so i ended up rushing everything along with doing revision for exam.(revision+exam+ptptn, i won't say they're the worst combination in the world but they're close to it.)
today, exam is over, i thought of finalizing all the documents needed for the ptptn and pass it up.
my last work is to print a few things, when i was trying to grab my stuffs(phone, key, wallet), i found that my wallet is gone. (yay~ after stressing in exam now stress for money)
i search for hours in my room, at the road i took to go home, all possible areas.
in the end i had finally found my wallet, which i had left it in the printing shop.
by the time i had found it, it is already going to be 5pm. which i won't make it for my ptptn documentation(since civil offices closed at around 5pm)
i left my wallet when i was trying to check all documents after done my payment, so i put my wallet aside and check the documents, then leave for home. the result is i forgot to take it back.
and today i break my record of 'forgot-something-important' with forgetting my wallet, and it is like it will continue to become worse and i will keep on breaking my record since yesterday.
so i hope there is some physicians or phychologist or whoever that can help me, to make me hav better memory.
my memory span is getting closer and closer to a goldfish's.
if my bad feeling is still around, then mayb tml i break my record again with something bigger(lets pray that i don't as it is possible to be something so bad that will hurt the others)
i would forgot when my exam is,
i would forgot to bath,
i would forgot today's date,
i would forgot what i was planning to do,
i had forgot my parents' birthday,
i had forgot my eldest sister's birthday,
i never recall knowing my elder sister's birthday(means i don't even hav a rough idea when),
i had forgot to bring my key out when i locked my door, and it happened twice with 1 time i was half naked after bath,
i had forgot some promises i made,
sometimes i forgot what i have done few minutes ago.
yesterday i just had my worst 'forgot-something-important', i forgot bout ptptn's due date is 8th, which i only had a few days left to settle things up, so i ended up rushing everything along with doing revision for exam.(revision+exam+ptptn, i won't say they're the worst combination in the world but they're close to it.)
today, exam is over, i thought of finalizing all the documents needed for the ptptn and pass it up.
my last work is to print a few things, when i was trying to grab my stuffs(phone, key, wallet), i found that my wallet is gone. (yay~ after stressing in exam now stress for money)
i search for hours in my room, at the road i took to go home, all possible areas.
in the end i had finally found my wallet, which i had left it in the printing shop.
by the time i had found it, it is already going to be 5pm. which i won't make it for my ptptn documentation(since civil offices closed at around 5pm)
i left my wallet when i was trying to check all documents after done my payment, so i put my wallet aside and check the documents, then leave for home. the result is i forgot to take it back.
and today i break my record of 'forgot-something-important' with forgetting my wallet, and it is like it will continue to become worse and i will keep on breaking my record since yesterday.
so i hope there is some physicians or phychologist or whoever that can help me, to make me hav better memory.
my memory span is getting closer and closer to a goldfish's.
if my bad feeling is still around, then mayb tml i break my record again with something bigger(lets pray that i don't as it is possible to be something so bad that will hurt the others)
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Swine Flu
for my friends in Kampar, especially those living in Kampar Perdana(aka east lake), u guys most probably didn't read newspaper or watch TV's news lately.(cuz no TV to watch, and no 7-11 nearby to sell u newspaper, mayb tesco got? i don't know.)
anyway..... well....
what i wanna say is that recently there're flu going around in the western country, and according to malaysia's Health Director had confirmed no influenza found YET in Malaysia, so for those who kena fever or something similar, pls go to hospital ASAP even though its exam time now.
please go here to read more bout this flu.
if the information there is not enough, google around with the keyword 'swine flu'.
in case u lazy to read, i copy paste something (considered) very important from the site.
- Avoid touching your eyes, nose or mouth.
zzzz, how to avoid touching those.
- Wash your hands often with soap and water, especially after you cough or sneeze. Alcohol-based hand cleaners are also helpful
i guess we had to wash our hands everytime before we touch it.
the following part is kinda interesting.
but actually.....
ok, so that's all i'm going to say. take care and don't get caught of the flu.
May the Force be with You, and me, and everybody.
anyway..... well....
what i wanna say is that recently there're flu going around in the western country, and according to malaysia's Health Director had confirmed no influenza found YET in Malaysia, so for those who kena fever or something similar, pls go to hospital ASAP even though its exam time now.
please go here to read more bout this flu.
if the information there is not enough, google around with the keyword 'swine flu'.
in case u lazy to read, i copy paste something (considered) very important from the site.
Which countries have had cases of the swine flu?
-The World Health Organisation (WHO) has confirmed human cases of swine flu in Mexico, the United States, Canada and Spain. Only Mexico has reported death from the new strain.
What can I do to protect myself from the swine flu?
-There is no vaccine available right now to protect against the swine flu.
and........ no vaccine available yet, shit.- Avoid touching your eyes, nose or mouth.
zzzz, how to avoid touching those.
- Wash your hands often with soap and water, especially after you cough or sneeze. Alcohol-based hand cleaners are also helpful
i guess we had to wash our hands everytime before we touch it.
the following part is kinda interesting.
How does it spread?
Swine flu viruses do not typically infect humans though they do occur through close proximity or contact with infected PIGS or contaminated areas. Cases of human-to-human spread have been documented.
lol, NO PORK!.but actually.....
Can people catch swine flu by eating pork?
No. Swine influenza viruses are not transmitted by food. Eating properly handled and cooked pork and pork products is safe. Cooking pork to an internal temperature of 70ºC and above kills the swine flu virus.
so u still can eat pork, but make sure the restaurant chef r not so lazy that will simply cook the pork for only a few minutes(and temperature is below 70ºC) and serve it to u.ok, so that's all i'm going to say. take care and don't get caught of the flu.
May the Force be with You, and me, and everybody.
Friday, April 10, 2009
YUI's new song, FullMetal Alchemist new season OP
YUI's new song is out!! weee!!!! it's called Again
FMA has new season and it's out too!!!! woooo!!!!!!!!
for YUI fans, u might want the TV version of this song to put as your ringtone, it works as good as Rolling Star(TV version) with different feel.
here's the link for it
FullMetal_Alchemist - Again (TV Size)
i will not post the link for the full version,
the first reason will be the copyright thingy.
2nd reason is, quite many people upload it so just google around and u will get one.
for those who doesn't know, i had heard this new season of FMA's storyline is following the manga version, so you guys might want to read it if you can't wait for the next episode.
here the link for the manga FMA Manga.
i'm sorry for those who can't read chinese, as i'm lazy to search for english-sub.
FMA has new season and it's out too!!!! woooo!!!!!!!!
for YUI fans, u might want the TV version of this song to put as your ringtone, it works as good as Rolling Star(TV version) with different feel.
here's the link for it
FullMetal_Alchemist - Again (TV Size)
i will not post the link for the full version,
the first reason will be the copyright thingy.
2nd reason is, quite many people upload it so just google around and u will get one.
for those who doesn't know, i had heard this new season of FMA's storyline is following the manga version, so you guys might want to read it if you can't wait for the next episode.
here the link for the manga FMA Manga.
i'm sorry for those who can't read chinese, as i'm lazy to search for english-sub.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
earth hour 2009 in kampar
its raining, i thought that many people will ignore this event as turn off the light will make them cannot do many things, and the best way to kill the 1 hour without light is to go out somewhere else which doesn't had earth hour.
well, as i thought, when i was in Westlake house, there're only a small group(around 4 people) gathering at the middle of the basketball court. they're lighting up candles in the rain, with umbrella on top to keep the candle away from raindrop.
as time goes, people notice our presence. more and more people start to gather in the basketball court. a few ten minutes later, the court is full of people. then there's someone suddenly shout out "turn off the light" towards houses that still have their lights on.
soon enough the others are following, but for a short while only.
around 9pm, half an hour before earth hour end. there's a girl suggest us to have a parade walking around the housing area. everyone agreed and we start walking.
while walking, there're always someone lead the group to shout "turn off the light" towards houses that didn't turn their lights off, and this process was just keep on continue until the
parade was finished.
i saw 1 chinese guy and 1 malay both holding a great camera like the one photographer use, and take pictures of the scene. i wonder r they journalist.
too bad i dont have any camera nor my phone can take photos, if not i will post some photo in here.
well, my blog is too plain too be notice so i can just ignore posting pictures here since almost no one will be looking at my blog anyway.
well, as i thought, when i was in Westlake house, there're only a small group(around 4 people) gathering at the middle of the basketball court. they're lighting up candles in the rain, with umbrella on top to keep the candle away from raindrop.
as time goes, people notice our presence. more and more people start to gather in the basketball court. a few ten minutes later, the court is full of people. then there's someone suddenly shout out "turn off the light" towards houses that still have their lights on.
soon enough the others are following, but for a short while only.
around 9pm, half an hour before earth hour end. there's a girl suggest us to have a parade walking around the housing area. everyone agreed and we start walking.
while walking, there're always someone lead the group to shout "turn off the light" towards houses that didn't turn their lights off, and this process was just keep on continue until the
parade was finished.
i saw 1 chinese guy and 1 malay both holding a great camera like the one photographer use, and take pictures of the scene. i wonder r they journalist.
too bad i dont have any camera nor my phone can take photos, if not i will post some photo in here.
well, my blog is too plain too be notice so i can just ignore posting pictures here since almost no one will be looking at my blog anyway.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Comment on Supernatural Season 4 Episode 16
OMG!!!
this is getting more and more and more and more and more exciting.
i must say, the author for this story is great.
for being able to make it so excited.
there're 2 things that shocks me in this episode.
but well, i'm not going to say what it is, or else i will be giving spoilers.
for anyone who haven't watch supernatural
tell ya, season 1 is kind of normal/quite alright/not bad,
but as the story goes, it gets more and more excited.
season 4 is the most excited season i had ever watch. i just can't stop being surprised of how the story develop.
this is getting more and more and more and more and more exciting.
i must say, the author for this story is great.
for being able to make it so excited.
there're 2 things that shocks me in this episode.
but well, i'm not going to say what it is, or else i will be giving spoilers.
for anyone who haven't watch supernatural
tell ya, season 1 is kind of normal/quite alright/not bad,
but as the story goes, it gets more and more excited.
season 4 is the most excited season i had ever watch. i just can't stop being surprised of how the story develop.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
K.I.S. (Full English Version) chapter 1 - Yan's first day to school
My Alarm rang.
i closed it, woke up
and have a big yawn.
today is 6th of January, Monday.
i will be starting to study and live in this city that i had left for around 4 and a half years.
to be more exact, that will be 1662 days.
why do i know the exact number?
because i was too boring yesterday and i did the calculation.
after having no one staying for so long, the house was nested by dust and spider webs.
but i only took half of the day to finish cleaning this 'abandoned' house.
and after cleaning, i still have another half day to spend.
usually, i will be doing the usual: playing computer games or skate around the area with my in-line.
but my computer and my in-line are the only things that my brother missed out when sending them to the delivery service.
"oh no, i forgot! no wonder i felt like i was missing something. i had actually reminded myself for many times but in the end i still ended up forgetting it because of being too busy. haha"
'haha' my foot, i bet he did it in purpose.
he is not the type that will do such mistake.
after all, he is the guy who had been promoted from a regular worker into a head department in less than 1 year time, and then became a Manager after another 2 years.
as to why he did it, the reason will be his usual way of 'joke'.
so after getting up, i brushed my teeth, cleaned up my face, opened the fridge for raw food and other ingredients, cooked my breakfast, and eat it.
then i found myself left quite some free time after all the works.
so i read the newspaper with the radio tuned on.
though usually i will be listening to my computer's music rather than the radio's.
............
i had spent my free time, then i took my leave to the school.
going out at this time is perfect as i will not reach there too early nor i will be late.
The school i'm going now, is called Kammzet International School.
As the name says, it is an international school, developed from senior high school to a school that combine both senior and junior high, and now joined as a 6 years high school.
currently, it has over 7000 students from different countries.
This is one great school i had ever seen in my life.
the school's land is just keep on expanding each year, making most newcomers get lost easily even with maps provided.
well, for me, i'm not the type who will get lost easily, and i had been to this school before when i was young, picking up my brother after he finished his class.
i'm not bad with navigating, so i won't be confused by the map.
and even if the place changes without updating the map, i'm sure i would at least able to get to the event hall, since it is a big huge and can be spot easily.
hmm........... as for the name 'Kammzet'.
well, it is taken from the founder, a man whose name is called Kammzet.
eventually, this city's name is also called Kammzet.
why?
because this man is the one, who found this place to have many resources, from metals to oil, and made it into a well-developed city.
in fact, this is the most developed city in the country, though it is not being labeled as the main city of the country.
besides, he had also save the city's economic crisis a few years ago, making him quite a legend.
though he don't call himself a mayor, but actually he is really acting like one.
also, he is not that simple.
this city, is not 100% under controlled by this country's government.
the government has less than 15% control power over this city, as i heard from my brother.
i wonder how he did it, and i wonder wasn't this city is more like a small country this way?
...................
whatever...
in the way walking school, i felt nostalgia of almost everything, it is been almost 5 years since i last walk at this road in the morning after all.
i can't help myself from not enjoying the morning breeze, it is just too comfortable that i want to lie on the ground and sleep.
well, i did that for a few times before, not on the middle of the road i'm walking on right now of course, but on the field nearby, along with Yuzhe and Ying.
that time was one of the few wonderful i ever had moment.
.............
geez, i'm reminiscence again.
i had lost count of how many times i did it since yesterday.
can't be helped, i guess that is normal after leaving my hometown for so long.
while reminiscence of every single thing i saw, i found myself already at the school's east gate.
alright, according to my calculation, i should used around 10 minutes to finish my transfer procedure, 15 minutes to briefly explore the place, after that i will be in the event hall waiting for opening ceremony to start.
things worked just as i expected, only the part: "15 minutes to briefly explore the school".
i get lost....... and because of getting lost, i didn't get to explore at all.
but somehow i walked in the direction to the event hall without knowing.(though i didn't saw any big hall around. but i just reached it and only realized the trees around are almost the height of the hall)
i'm not late for the open ceremony, i didn't take far more than 15 minutes either but.....
i failed the part "briefly explore the school". i really had no idea what place i had been. with all the trees around the places, it sure looks like a maze.
come to think of it, the last time i came here is 7 years ago, when my brother is having his graduation ceremony. i guess i had underestimated the changes this place can made within 7 years.
and also........
darn the outdated map.
the open ceremony is finished......
here i am in my new class.
the seat is chosen by student instead of being fixed or random by teacher, unlike my previous school.
so i choose my favorite seat: the one at the last row.
people always had their attention on me in my previous school.
probably because i had cause quite some fuss before.
well, i did not want it to happen, i just can't helped it.
it all started on the 3rd day i attended that school,
a common case that can be seen almost everywhere: students being bullied,
happened when i was going home after school,
being teased is still endurable, but snatching my bag and try to get my purse is what gets me fight off. to begin with, that time i was in bad mood after being teased- i mean 'used' by my brother. so i would lose my temper easily that time.
and so, without noticing, i already wear on my glove and beaten them all to the ground.
my glove had iron attached on them, so each hit is mostly fatal.
i kept on hitting each of them until i realized what i was doing.
and when i stopped, they were already seriously wounded,
to the extent that they were needed to be sent to the hospital.
Then the next morning i was called by the student council to be questioned.
they understand my situation, and forgive me for hurting the others with 2 reason:
-those delinquents are already big trouble maker for them until they can't do anything
-first time is always allow to be spared
but that wasn't a happy ending, or should i said, that is not even the end yet.
the delinquents that were hurt by me keep on getting more of their kind to attack me.
in this case 'to get their revenge on me' would be much more suitable.
and i was forced to increase the cases of gangsters lying on the middle of the road.
.... the event's seriousness extent to the state where local newspaper had the cases put on it,
but luckily it is not in the front page,
and also luckily they didn't know the culprit.
or i will be damned in many ways.
only very few teachers and some people from the student council know it was me who did it.
but still, rumor spreaded.
and made me a fearsome beast to other people.
so, that will be the reason why people always had their attention on me.
because they are either afraid of me or mistaken me as other bullies and hated me.
end of recalling, back to now. i was in the class looking for seat.
there's only 1 seat left in the last row, i supposed i am in a little luck.
i put down my bag, and i overheard 3 guys talking.
"that girl over there is cute!"
"no, the one behind her is cuter"
"wow, she has nice legs."
people said, guys tend to talk about those things a lot, especially when in the age of teenage, and it is very normal.
but i had no interest in it, so should i conclude myself as an abnormal male teen?
well, those 4 and a half years i spend in other city, there's 2 years i was suffering from seeing too much lust.
it was my brother's girlfriend.....
alright, i will NOT talk about it, i feel disgusted even by just thinking about her.
"stupids...."
i say that out naturally, even though i tried to keep it in my mind only.
after that, i left the class. to take a walk around the building ONLY, as wandering around the whole building won't make me lost.
and to avoid that happening again i must at least know how the building structure is.
after a while, i got it back to my class without getting lost.
but, shoot......
the class was already started....
everyone was looking at me as i opened the door and disturbed the teacher in the middle of her speech.
well well, this scene is kind of familiar, i guess i had seen it before in my previous school, probably in this situation it is slightly better.
i quickly go back to my seat and sit down.
the teacher continued her speech.
"ah, as i said just now, i'm your homeroom teacher for this year."
and she pointed on the board with her electronic pen,
"the name is Alicia Aubrac. i would like you guys to call me Alicia. anyone who does not do so will feel my wrath"
huh? its ok to not being too formal.... but aren't you supposed to act more like a teacher?
-i thought. "i'm single~ so anyone of you who has an older brother or cousin or neighbor please tell them about me. my 3 size is 36 25 38. i'm 167cm and 55 kg"
miss, are you alright? is this some kind of joke? oh my god, what is she talking about? is she promoting herself? oh no, wait, i feel familiar of this scene as well.
"and my age is......................................... a secret~"
gosh!
it is so much like my brother's ex-girl friend.
is it fated that i will met this kind of people no matter where i go?
the class went silent, i thought that's a good reaction, as we should let her know what she said is something very wrong.
"wheew~~~ Alice you are cute~~"
"yay~~~ we had luck this year"
that came from the guys that i had overheard their conversation earlier.
is this normal? is that suppose to be a normal reaction? don't tell me this place not only changed geographically, but the culture as well? eh, no wait, Alice?? you're calling her Alice??? "thank you, guys. alrighty, i had done my introduction, it is you guys' turn~"
..........can someone tell me what's going on?
..........
ok, i'm not sure but it seems like i'm the only one who is in huge shock.
everybody is introducing themself normally,
by the time i get a hold of myself,
the introduction is already reached the last row,
and the next second person will be me.
oow... i guess i have to think of what to say for the introduction.
the girl beside me stood up.
"my name is Chen Mei Ying. you can call me Ying"
huh? is that all? wasn't that a little too short? wait, who did she said she's? then i looked at her.
hm..... i think it is her, looks like she changed so much after 4 and a half years.
-i thought.
"alright, the next guy!"
oh no, it's my turn already.
ah well, just do what Ying had did, a short introduction will do.
"I'm Wang Xia Yan. call me whatever you want"
i speak these out loud in a tone which i believed, it sounded like what a unfriendly delinquent would say.
"next!"
the i-called-it-desperated-single-woman Alice was getting more and more impatient.
perhaps the introduction was too boring for her?
the next person stood up.
"i'm Zhang Yu Zhe. i'm from Kendo club, so if any of you are interested in kendo let me know~"
alright, so Ying is on my right, and Yuzhe is left. is this really coincident? and he's actually promoting his own club....
"alright!! that concluded today's briefing of the class. i will see you guys again tomorrow"
is she serious? there's 30 minutes more before the class finished, did she really done all the briefing when i was late? did she put the self introduction at the back and start briefing first? but wasn't it normally one will start their speech with self introduction first? i went panic at that short moment.
but in the end i came to a conclusion that, she had forgotten about it.
actually just to make myself feel better.
never mind, i could just ask both of my buddy about the briefing.
"call me whatever you want. wooo, that's so cool"
Ying start the conversation before i do.
"yea. seeing you is really not-so-fun."
"hahaha, you haven't changed much, Yan."
Yuzhe joined in the conversation.
it's been so long since we had a talk like this. i felt nostalgia again.
"it's so Yan-like."
"same goes to both of you"
"hahaha"
while it looked like a happy rejoice of three best friend,
Ying hit the table hard all of the sudden, and glare at me.
"tell me... Yan..."
now what?
"why did you left this place without saying anything to us, not even a goodbye."
this is one of the bad thing expected to be happen, but it came a little too soon for me to fully prepare.
the reason is not something proud to talk about.
having a father abandoning his family.
my mom felt sick for a few times because of overworked,
and my brother was forced to work right after he graduated in high school, not being able to further his study in University.
if he does he will most probably get a scholarship and graduated the University in amazing score.
moving away from here without letting anyone know is so that my father won't know we had left, and don't know where we go.
'it will also be troublesome if we don't leave because you had also cause such a serious problem.'
-my brother said so, and it was his idea for us all to move while having all these as the reasons.
"i don't really want to talk about it."
i closed it, woke up
and have a big yawn.
today is 6th of January, Monday.
i will be starting to study and live in this city that i had left for around 4 and a half years.
to be more exact, that will be 1662 days.
why do i know the exact number?
because i was too boring yesterday and i did the calculation.
after having no one staying for so long, the house was nested by dust and spider webs.
but i only took half of the day to finish cleaning this 'abandoned' house.
and after cleaning, i still have another half day to spend.
usually, i will be doing the usual: playing computer games or skate around the area with my in-line.
but my computer and my in-line are the only things that my brother missed out when sending them to the delivery service.
"oh no, i forgot! no wonder i felt like i was missing something. i had actually reminded myself for many times but in the end i still ended up forgetting it because of being too busy. haha"
'haha' my foot, i bet he did it in purpose.
he is not the type that will do such mistake.
after all, he is the guy who had been promoted from a regular worker into a head department in less than 1 year time, and then became a Manager after another 2 years.
as to why he did it, the reason will be his usual way of 'joke'.
so after getting up, i brushed my teeth, cleaned up my face, opened the fridge for raw food and other ingredients, cooked my breakfast, and eat it.
then i found myself left quite some free time after all the works.
so i read the newspaper with the radio tuned on.
though usually i will be listening to my computer's music rather than the radio's.
............
i had spent my free time, then i took my leave to the school.
going out at this time is perfect as i will not reach there too early nor i will be late.
The school i'm going now, is called Kammzet International School.
As the name says, it is an international school, developed from senior high school to a school that combine both senior and junior high, and now joined as a 6 years high school.
currently, it has over 7000 students from different countries.
This is one great school i had ever seen in my life.
the school's land is just keep on expanding each year, making most newcomers get lost easily even with maps provided.
well, for me, i'm not the type who will get lost easily, and i had been to this school before when i was young, picking up my brother after he finished his class.
i'm not bad with navigating, so i won't be confused by the map.
and even if the place changes without updating the map, i'm sure i would at least able to get to the event hall, since it is a big huge and can be spot easily.
hmm........... as for the name 'Kammzet'.
well, it is taken from the founder, a man whose name is called Kammzet.
eventually, this city's name is also called Kammzet.
why?
because this man is the one, who found this place to have many resources, from metals to oil, and made it into a well-developed city.
in fact, this is the most developed city in the country, though it is not being labeled as the main city of the country.
besides, he had also save the city's economic crisis a few years ago, making him quite a legend.
though he don't call himself a mayor, but actually he is really acting like one.
also, he is not that simple.
this city, is not 100% under controlled by this country's government.
the government has less than 15% control power over this city, as i heard from my brother.
i wonder how he did it, and i wonder wasn't this city is more like a small country this way?
...................
whatever...
in the way walking school, i felt nostalgia of almost everything, it is been almost 5 years since i last walk at this road in the morning after all.
i can't help myself from not enjoying the morning breeze, it is just too comfortable that i want to lie on the ground and sleep.
well, i did that for a few times before, not on the middle of the road i'm walking on right now of course, but on the field nearby, along with Yuzhe and Ying.
that time was one of the few wonderful i ever had moment.
.............
geez, i'm reminiscence again.
i had lost count of how many times i did it since yesterday.
can't be helped, i guess that is normal after leaving my hometown for so long.
while reminiscence of every single thing i saw, i found myself already at the school's east gate.
alright, according to my calculation, i should used around 10 minutes to finish my transfer procedure, 15 minutes to briefly explore the place, after that i will be in the event hall waiting for opening ceremony to start.
things worked just as i expected, only the part: "15 minutes to briefly explore the school".
i get lost....... and because of getting lost, i didn't get to explore at all.
but somehow i walked in the direction to the event hall without knowing.(though i didn't saw any big hall around. but i just reached it and only realized the trees around are almost the height of the hall)
i'm not late for the open ceremony, i didn't take far more than 15 minutes either but.....
i failed the part "briefly explore the school". i really had no idea what place i had been. with all the trees around the places, it sure looks like a maze.
come to think of it, the last time i came here is 7 years ago, when my brother is having his graduation ceremony. i guess i had underestimated the changes this place can made within 7 years.
and also........
darn the outdated map.
the open ceremony is finished......
here i am in my new class.
the seat is chosen by student instead of being fixed or random by teacher, unlike my previous school.
so i choose my favorite seat: the one at the last row.
people always had their attention on me in my previous school.
probably because i had cause quite some fuss before.
well, i did not want it to happen, i just can't helped it.
it all started on the 3rd day i attended that school,
a common case that can be seen almost everywhere: students being bullied,
happened when i was going home after school,
being teased is still endurable, but snatching my bag and try to get my purse is what gets me fight off. to begin with, that time i was in bad mood after being teased- i mean 'used' by my brother. so i would lose my temper easily that time.
and so, without noticing, i already wear on my glove and beaten them all to the ground.
my glove had iron attached on them, so each hit is mostly fatal.
i kept on hitting each of them until i realized what i was doing.
and when i stopped, they were already seriously wounded,
to the extent that they were needed to be sent to the hospital.
Then the next morning i was called by the student council to be questioned.
they understand my situation, and forgive me for hurting the others with 2 reason:
-those delinquents are already big trouble maker for them until they can't do anything
-first time is always allow to be spared
but that wasn't a happy ending, or should i said, that is not even the end yet.
the delinquents that were hurt by me keep on getting more of their kind to attack me.
in this case 'to get their revenge on me' would be much more suitable.
and i was forced to increase the cases of gangsters lying on the middle of the road.
.... the event's seriousness extent to the state where local newspaper had the cases put on it,
but luckily it is not in the front page,
and also luckily they didn't know the culprit.
or i will be damned in many ways.
only very few teachers and some people from the student council know it was me who did it.
but still, rumor spreaded.
and made me a fearsome beast to other people.
so, that will be the reason why people always had their attention on me.
because they are either afraid of me or mistaken me as other bullies and hated me.
end of recalling, back to now. i was in the class looking for seat.
there's only 1 seat left in the last row, i supposed i am in a little luck.
i put down my bag, and i overheard 3 guys talking.
"that girl over there is cute!"
"no, the one behind her is cuter"
"wow, she has nice legs."
people said, guys tend to talk about those things a lot, especially when in the age of teenage, and it is very normal.
but i had no interest in it, so should i conclude myself as an abnormal male teen?
well, those 4 and a half years i spend in other city, there's 2 years i was suffering from seeing too much lust.
it was my brother's girlfriend.....
alright, i will NOT talk about it, i feel disgusted even by just thinking about her.
"stupids...."
i say that out naturally, even though i tried to keep it in my mind only.
after that, i left the class. to take a walk around the building ONLY, as wandering around the whole building won't make me lost.
and to avoid that happening again i must at least know how the building structure is.
after a while, i got it back to my class without getting lost.
but, shoot......
the class was already started....
everyone was looking at me as i opened the door and disturbed the teacher in the middle of her speech.
well well, this scene is kind of familiar, i guess i had seen it before in my previous school, probably in this situation it is slightly better.
i quickly go back to my seat and sit down.
the teacher continued her speech.
"ah, as i said just now, i'm your homeroom teacher for this year."
and she pointed on the board with her electronic pen,
"the name is Alicia Aubrac. i would like you guys to call me Alicia. anyone who does not do so will feel my wrath"
huh? its ok to not being too formal.... but aren't you supposed to act more like a teacher?
-i thought. "i'm single~ so anyone of you who has an older brother or cousin or neighbor please tell them about me. my 3 size is 36 25 38. i'm 167cm and 55 kg"
miss, are you alright? is this some kind of joke? oh my god, what is she talking about? is she promoting herself? oh no, wait, i feel familiar of this scene as well.
"and my age is......................................... a secret~"
gosh!
it is so much like my brother's ex-girl friend.
is it fated that i will met this kind of people no matter where i go?
the class went silent, i thought that's a good reaction, as we should let her know what she said is something very wrong.
"wheew~~~ Alice you are cute~~"
"yay~~~ we had luck this year"
that came from the guys that i had overheard their conversation earlier.
is this normal? is that suppose to be a normal reaction? don't tell me this place not only changed geographically, but the culture as well? eh, no wait, Alice?? you're calling her Alice??? "thank you, guys. alrighty, i had done my introduction, it is you guys' turn~"
..........can someone tell me what's going on?
..........
ok, i'm not sure but it seems like i'm the only one who is in huge shock.
everybody is introducing themself normally,
by the time i get a hold of myself,
the introduction is already reached the last row,
and the next second person will be me.
oow... i guess i have to think of what to say for the introduction.
the girl beside me stood up.
"my name is Chen Mei Ying. you can call me Ying"
huh? is that all? wasn't that a little too short? wait, who did she said she's? then i looked at her.
hm..... i think it is her, looks like she changed so much after 4 and a half years.
-i thought.
"alright, the next guy!"
oh no, it's my turn already.
ah well, just do what Ying had did, a short introduction will do.
"I'm Wang Xia Yan. call me whatever you want"
i speak these out loud in a tone which i believed, it sounded like what a unfriendly delinquent would say.
"next!"
the i-called-it-desperated-single-woman Alice was getting more and more impatient.
perhaps the introduction was too boring for her?
the next person stood up.
"i'm Zhang Yu Zhe. i'm from Kendo club, so if any of you are interested in kendo let me know~"
alright, so Ying is on my right, and Yuzhe is left. is this really coincident? and he's actually promoting his own club....
"alright!! that concluded today's briefing of the class. i will see you guys again tomorrow"
is she serious? there's 30 minutes more before the class finished, did she really done all the briefing when i was late? did she put the self introduction at the back and start briefing first? but wasn't it normally one will start their speech with self introduction first? i went panic at that short moment.
but in the end i came to a conclusion that, she had forgotten about it.
actually just to make myself feel better.
never mind, i could just ask both of my buddy about the briefing.
"call me whatever you want. wooo, that's so cool"
Ying start the conversation before i do.
"yea. seeing you is really not-so-fun."
"hahaha, you haven't changed much, Yan."
Yuzhe joined in the conversation.
it's been so long since we had a talk like this. i felt nostalgia again.
"it's so Yan-like."
"same goes to both of you"
"hahaha"
while it looked like a happy rejoice of three best friend,
Ying hit the table hard all of the sudden, and glare at me.
"tell me... Yan..."
now what?
"why did you left this place without saying anything to us, not even a goodbye."
this is one of the bad thing expected to be happen, but it came a little too soon for me to fully prepare.
the reason is not something proud to talk about.
having a father abandoning his family.
my mom felt sick for a few times because of overworked,
and my brother was forced to work right after he graduated in high school, not being able to further his study in University.
if he does he will most probably get a scholarship and graduated the University in amazing score.
moving away from here without letting anyone know is so that my father won't know we had left, and don't know where we go.
'it will also be troublesome if we don't leave because you had also cause such a serious problem.'
-my brother said so, and it was his idea for us all to move while having all these as the reasons.
"i don't really want to talk about it."
"why? do you had any idea how worried we were? do you know how lonely i felt?"
this conversation is getting worse.
i was going to say "you're not the only one felt lonely".
but i forced myself not to,
as i know it will make this conversation worse,
it is also a bad timing and bad place to have this topic on.
"Ying, calm down."
Yuzhe tried to control the situation.
i can't say anything now and i can't face a girl who looks like will cry anytime, especially when it is my fault for her to cry.
so i had to let all the calming and comforting done by Yuzhe.
"i'm sorry....."
she stopped, unexpected fast.
".....for doing this now. but this conversation will only be over next time"
and she continued.
so there's a next time huh? i guess i had no way to run. better be prepared for the history to repeat itself. - i thought.
i'm not good in sharing secrets, especially bad ones.
"come on Ying, let's go to the cafeteria, i will buy you your favourite chilli-sauced bun."
chilli-sauced bun, it seems Ying is still the same she was. but 'evolve' a bit.
"eeeww...... chilli bun? Ying, you had evolved from 'having chilli as seasoning' to 'having chilli as main dish'?"
i teased her without thinking these words could possibly worsen the situation.
and i get a straight punch to my face.
which means she's alright now.
i don't feel any pain though as i get into fight a lot, and she doesn't had much strength.
"Yan, lets go. i will take you for a tour in this school"
thanks Yuzhe, i really need a guide.
-i kept these words in my mind, as i know i will be laughed by them if they know i had been lost in the school just now.
in the end, i'm relieved that everything went alright.
Ying doesn't seem like will start another bad conversation again, so i guess i will just put all up-coming problems aside and enjoy being with these 2 for now.
this conversation is getting worse.
i was going to say "you're not the only one felt lonely".
but i forced myself not to,
as i know it will make this conversation worse,
it is also a bad timing and bad place to have this topic on.
"Ying, calm down."
Yuzhe tried to control the situation.
i can't say anything now and i can't face a girl who looks like will cry anytime, especially when it is my fault for her to cry.
so i had to let all the calming and comforting done by Yuzhe.
"i'm sorry....."
she stopped, unexpected fast.
".....for doing this now. but this conversation will only be over next time"
and she continued.
so there's a next time huh? i guess i had no way to run. better be prepared for the history to repeat itself. - i thought.
i'm not good in sharing secrets, especially bad ones.
"come on Ying, let's go to the cafeteria, i will buy you your favourite chilli-sauced bun."
chilli-sauced bun, it seems Ying is still the same she was. but 'evolve' a bit.
"eeeww...... chilli bun? Ying, you had evolved from 'having chilli as seasoning' to 'having chilli as main dish'?"
i teased her without thinking these words could possibly worsen the situation.
and i get a straight punch to my face.
which means she's alright now.
i don't feel any pain though as i get into fight a lot, and she doesn't had much strength.
"Yan, lets go. i will take you for a tour in this school"
thanks Yuzhe, i really need a guide.
-i kept these words in my mind, as i know i will be laughed by them if they know i had been lost in the school just now.
in the end, i'm relieved that everything went alright.
Ying doesn't seem like will start another bad conversation again, so i guess i will just put all up-coming problems aside and enjoy being with these 2 for now.
Friday, March 13, 2009
twisted back to normal
ok, the last post said that i usually go to sleep before 12am. but now's it is other way round.
go to sleep after 12am is being normal now.
go to sleep after 12am is being normal now.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
part of me that is not known by many
1.31am, Saturday
it's already so 'early', but i'm still awake.
after moving to kampar, sleeping before 12 is a normal case.
while sleep after 2am had never happened (yet).
what i'm doing in weekend night?
there's no assignment, no homework(or at least i'm not up to do it)
so what am i doing?
watching anime? playing games?
hmm.......... to most of my friends that know me, may had guess that,
at the same time, when they saw me asking like that,
they might already expect i'm doing something i won't normally do.
anyway, i'm writing story.
yes, writing story.
not love story, i would called it a fiction.
i had like Final Fantasy since the first time i saw FF8,
after that i start to play almost all series of FF.
that's not the point, the point is i like the story structure of FF.
so i start to simply imagine a cool and strong character in my head,
and give him a name.
later on, i found that character's name is coincidently same as a dragon's name in a certain story.
So after that, i decide to use this name for almost every username i had create in many online websites.
finally after some time later, i start to write a story about him.
as time goes, the story is getting broader.
from a normal 'fighting evil and save the world' plot to something else which i dunno what to say about it.
oh well, though i had start that story, but in the middle i stop it and write another story which is modern school life, as i had watch too much school life anime that time.
then later again, i change the story and add in fictions.
after that, i make these 2 stories somewhat relate to each other.(not in a very obvious way)
i hardly read any story books, so the way i write my story is terrible.
when i ask for comment from a friend, she said "doesn't looks like a story, more like a script".
of course, she has no offense at all, i ask her to say it in a straight way.
so now, i'm trying to change the way i write it, try to add in more other words that i don't really use.
it's already so 'early', but i'm still awake.
after moving to kampar, sleeping before 12 is a normal case.
while sleep after 2am had never happened (yet).
what i'm doing in weekend night?
there's no assignment, no homework(or at least i'm not up to do it)
so what am i doing?
watching anime? playing games?
hmm.......... to most of my friends that know me, may had guess that,
at the same time, when they saw me asking like that,
they might already expect i'm doing something i won't normally do.
anyway, i'm writing story.
yes, writing story.
not love story, i would called it a fiction.
i had like Final Fantasy since the first time i saw FF8,
after that i start to play almost all series of FF.
that's not the point, the point is i like the story structure of FF.
so i start to simply imagine a cool and strong character in my head,
and give him a name.
later on, i found that character's name is coincidently same as a dragon's name in a certain story.
So after that, i decide to use this name for almost every username i had create in many online websites.
finally after some time later, i start to write a story about him.
as time goes, the story is getting broader.
from a normal 'fighting evil and save the world' plot to something else which i dunno what to say about it.
oh well, though i had start that story, but in the middle i stop it and write another story which is modern school life, as i had watch too much school life anime that time.
then later again, i change the story and add in fictions.
after that, i make these 2 stories somewhat relate to each other.(not in a very obvious way)
i hardly read any story books, so the way i write my story is terrible.
when i ask for comment from a friend, she said "doesn't looks like a story, more like a script".
of course, she has no offense at all, i ask her to say it in a straight way.
so now, i'm trying to change the way i write it, try to add in more other words that i don't really use.
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